sosickofthis

im so sick of my constantly fluctuating weight.

and my constantly fluctuation will to lose it.  UGH.
day off tomorrow : run, ab workout, find something constructive to do besides eat!

and now for some pictures that will surely make me jealous, angry and determined

notgoingtolie

Im feeling really fat today, even though my stomach is growling.
I just feel gross.
excuse me while i go hide under my blankets and sleep till I have to run .

id also like to point out.  this picture basically makes me want to kill myself.
so efffffffffffffffffing jealous .  O MG .
i want to be taaaaaanned where's the effing sun !?
Winter go away !

I also want to be thin but you knew that already right?

ab workout tonight ! woo

earlymornings

So quick update !
Sorry, I keep leaving and coming back blahblaahhh .
I've been really busy lately with working.. for instance i have to wake up at 5am tomorrrrrrrow to be at work by 7.  which succkss ! Ohwell , im getting paid !

anyways ! to the weight loss.. or lack there of.
I'm not really upset or depressed.  Things have been going fabulously excersise wisee.  I just need to tweak my eating habits a little more and I should be on a road to "hot summer bod" in a few weeks.

So, My best friend and I started running recently.  I started running by myself just around the block a few times, which isn't a lot but at least its something right? So then I asked her if she wanted to run blah blah blah , and now 4 times a week sometimes 5 we run 6km or 3 miles every night.. then I have baseball practice for about an hour and half and then... I go to the gym with this girl who is tiny and has the perfect body , so muscular and skinnyy omg. so jealous.. but perfect motivation and she is helping me a lot.  I recently bought Jillian Michaels ab work out dvd that im going to test tomorrow if im not to tiredddddddddd after my run :)

eating wise: I've started to drink a lot more water. We do not buy juice anymoreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee yay !
also, i try not to eat meals during the day .  I start my day off with orange juice till about lunch timee , then on my breaks I try to have the best soup and if no soup then the next best thing which might be oatmeal (250cals) and then I dont eat when I get home cause I run and that is the worst feeling having a full tummy and running.  Yuck!
and then I usually end my night with a plate that has raspberries, cucumber, cherry tomatoes, maybe 2 or 3 crackers, some thin sliced cheese andddd red pepper depending on how im feeeling.  Then right before bed, I have a small bowl of raisin bran.


Weekends: are the toughest part of my weightloss goal .  I eat like garbage on weekends cause im with friends and my family doesnt usually cook dinner on friday saturday night. we eat out a lot, and since we go out a lot on weekends we tend to grab lunch so on and so fourth


hope you all are doing well !
staystrong! xo