feeling like shit again today. I have just been eating everythng in my path. I only workedout once all week last week and ate a lot over thr weekend. I am just on like one big binge fest. I only have 112 days till I want to reach my ugw or atleast be down to 120. I feel so sick and disgusted with myself lately. I don't know why I can't seem to gain control like I did before. I want to be able to dress nice and feel confindent when I am out or naked ( lol ) I just want a nice body. really really badly. I need really get control of myself badly. I have been so depressed lately and I know its soley because of my weight. I went of my birth control the other day and I do feel less bloated which is nice because that was causing my tummy to be all gross and puffed up. Now its better. I am going to bed at 138.7 tonight.
Hopefully I can report with some sort of success tomorrow.
stay strong xx